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Quod me nutrit me destruit.
Currently:
Sara.
18.
Single.
Content.

"I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours."
darmo13@hotmail.com
sara.darmenia@gmail.com


"That's the thing about Narcissus, it's not thst he's so fucking in love with himself, because he isn't at all, he fucking hates himself. It's that without that reflection looking back at him... he doesn't exist."

(♥'s)things i like:
pretty guitars, music, boys, friends, gigs, pins, black and white checks, pink, chocolate, boys that wear black nailpolish, starbucks, England, D n M's, horror movies, rasberry frappucionos, good spoofs, hot cars, english boys, laughs, Finnish glam rock, glam rock, guitar players, bass players, drummers, trains, the internet, HIM, gyllenhall, six feet under, cupboards, dan hawkins, black nailpolish, Hans Blix, talking for hours on the phone, snow, eyeliner, travellators, driving, LiveJournal, bubbles, vampires, serial killers, beanbags, photobooths, ikea, smurfs, lithium

(♥'s) things i dont like:
Dave Navarro, people who smash their guitars, boys with rockstar egos, people who judge me, people who whinge but wont be whinged to, people who turn out to be different, australia, halogen lighting, people who put shit stickers on pretty guitars, starwars, smilies, romance movies, bad spoofs, surprises, coincidences, the tav, smothers, loosing guitar pics, split ups, kids, being funny, summer, twang, sand, chemistry, busses, planes, strobe lights, neon signs, planes, Bright Eyes, traveling, bubbles that burst, shit amps, scenesters, timetables, yellow pens, being ignored, weapons of mass distruction, lithium

"In one way or another I've always suffered. I didn't know why exactly. But I do know that I'm not so scared of suffering now. I feel more than I've ever felt and I've found someone to feel with. To play with. To love in a way that feels right for me. I hope he knows that I can see that he suffers too. And that I want to love him.
Each cut, each scar, each burn, a different mood or time. I told him what the first one was, told him where the second one came from. I remembered them all. And for the first time in my life I felt beautiful. Finally part of the earth. I touched the soil and he loved me back." - Lee Holloway, Secretary

I'm sure this is all gonna sound really ridiculous and uh... I don't exactly expect anyone to believe all this. Uh... for the last little while I've been kinda keeping correspondance with my sanity, and uhh… I really get the feeling that I’m starting to lose interest in the letter writing process. The pieces of the letters, they just get progressively shorter and shorter until it’s not even a reply. I uhh... the whole thing makes me really nervous. I just wish I could show you what a huge problem this is.

I kind of have this... Really terrible habit of asking myself all these stupid questions, right? Like what if uhh… what if there's a spot on my body that I can touch to keep my heart from beating? or like what if, what if theres this uhh... stray bullet out there that’s gonna come through my window and take me out? like what if uhh... what if theres this huge unstoppable comet that’s just gonna like, destroy the earth and all of us? Like what... what if that’s happening right now? How can I avoid all these questions if I don't have that? Like, who is gonna be here? Why... who is gonna be there... in the hospital? Who is gonna tell me that all this is bullshit... its a dream? Just a dream.This is not a joke. And uhh... i'll never sleep.

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